Last night i was wondering how awesome and mighty God actually is. Tonight I think i'm getting a glimpse of how incredible he is. It's storming outside. The wind blowing, and the trees outside my window bending under the strength of the elements. Just now the sky literally turned a bright pink with a flash of lightning, and the house's foundation shook with the power of the thunder. Outside my window the rain is pouring off my garage roof is sheets. I wish i could take a picture, but my camera is out of batteries and there are none to be found in this house. It makes me wonder how I can doubt that's there is a higher power day by day when there are so many mighty testimonies of God ruling our lives. From hummingbirds to lightning bolts crashing to earth, everything in nature screams "God."    I don't really like to debate the whole subject of evolution. But I just can't see how people can think that everything, even the little hummingbird, evolved from goo. I'm not sure what pro-evolutionists think we evolved from, but don't you consider yourselves greater than that? How degrading to think, "I was evolved from a pile of goo, how lucky I am." It's such a wonderful thought for me to know that I wasn't just a random accident created by fate, but that every part of me, my personality, my eyes, my smile, etc... all of me, everything that i am and will be, was planned out and made with love by the same person who created everything... from thunderstorms to hummingbirds.    It's hard growing up. For all my life i've always wanted to be older, to be a grown up. As I've gotten older my life's changed so dramatically. When i was 13 yrs. old i wouldn't have ever imagined how much i would change by the time I was 16 yrs. old! I wanted to grow up, but it's scary not knowing what's going to happen in the next few years. What will I be, where will I be? I've had to put alot of faith into my God, even though i desperately want to be in control of my own life, I know I have to give it to him. Everything screams inside of me, "No, it's your life you should be in control of it!" But then I have to sit back and realize that even if i tried my hardest I can't control my own life, or anyone else's for that matter. How funny that I should even think to defy God.    It's thunderstorms like these that makes me realize who I have the guts to try to stand up against. Me, someone who people think evolved from a pile of goo, stamping my foot saying, "God I don't need you." And God, who could strike me with a lightning bolt right then and there, replying, "No, You need me and whether or not you want me there, i'll always be by your side." How amazing is that... God never gives up on me, although I have deserved to be struck with that lightning bolt many many times. The storm's moving south, the trees have resumed there vertical position, and the rain has let up quite a bit. I can still see lightning in the distance over the trees and hear the thunder come a few minutes later... amazing. I guess we all grow up, thunderstorms come and go, and hummingbirds eventually die; How lucky I am to have a God that created me and won't ever leave me.